You're Not Meant to Figure It Out
There’s a kind of cosmic humor built into the design of being human.
Especially when you look at it through the lens of Human Design.
Take Gate 24, for example, the Gate of Rationalization.
In the bodygraph, it forms one half of the Channel of Awareness (Channel 61–24).
On one end, Gate 61 — the Gate of Mystery — holds the deep, almost unbearable pressure to seek answers to life's questions.
And on the other end, Gate 24 endlessly tries to know the answer, to make sense of the unknowable, to rationalize and understand.
You're wired to search, but you're actually built to surrender.
The mind is not meant to figure it all out.
The mind is designed to search, yes.
To analyze and organize, yup.
To strategize, for sure.
But to know? NOPE.
Knowing arises from somewhere else — from a space that lives well beyond the constraints & limitations of your mind.
The Addiction You Don’t Know You Have
The energy of Gate 24 carries a profound teaching about the nature of addiction.
But not the addiction most people think of.
Not to gambling, drinking, sex or shopping.
It’s the addiction to your own thoughts.
The endless spinning, the chewing, the trying to predict, plan, and control.
The belief that if you just think a little harder, turn it over one more time, gather one more opinion, you'll finally feel clear and safe. And then, you can exhale.
You won't.
Not because you're doing it wrong — but because that's not how the energy of the unknown works. There is always more that is unknowable. And, so we stay in the loop of the search.
The Channel of Awareness: Cosmic Comedy
The Channel of Awareness (61–24) is pressure meeting process.
Gate 61 holds the pressure to know life's deepest mysteries.
Gate 24 grabs that pressure and tries to mentally work it out.
But the truth is:
You can’t solve a mystery with the mind.
You can’t predict your way into certainty.
You can’t think yourself into peace.
The more tightly you grip — the further away the answer slips.
Because true knowing — true awareness — doesn’t emerge from force.
It arises from the silent space beyond the mind.
It often shows up not when you're trying harder, but when you're softer:
in the shower,
on the walk where you leave your headphones behind,
in the moment you pause at a red light and choose to breathe instead of scroll.
The clarity you're craving doesn’t live at the end of the next thought.
It lives in the gaps.
When You Don't Know What to Do
Maybe today you're trying to make a decision.
Maybe you’re standing in the thick of uncertainty.
Do I stay?
Do I go?
Is this right?
Is this wrong?
And your mind is doing what it’s wired to do —
grasping for a solution, a correct answer, trying to predict a future it can't yet see.
Gate 24 reminds you:
You don't have to figure it all out.
You aren't meant to.
The addiction isn’t just to thinking.
It’s to believing that thinking harder will save you.
But real answers — real peace — arise when you loosen the mental grip.
When you allow silence.
When you soften your demand to know.
A Living Practice
Next time you catch yourself spinning, mentally chewing, tightening around a decision...
Pause.
Feel your breath.
Feel the angst of uncertainty.
And instead of tightening more, soften.
Say to yourself:
"Right now, I don't know. And that's okay."
Hold the gap open just a little longer.
Trust that what needs to be known will find you —
not through force, but through the space you allow.
It will find you IN THE GAP.
Closing Reflection
What lives beyond the mind isn’t emptiness.
It’s not failure.
It’s not danger.
It’s life itself —
rising to meet you,
quietly,
patiently,
in the space where you finally stop trying to figure it all out.
If you’ve ever truly touched this space, you know the endless possibility which resides within it.
This Week’s Flow Field Notes
An idea I’m contemplating -
In the lineage of Cha Dao, the Way of Tea that I study and practice,
there are no teachers — only senior students.
Culture urges us to brand ourselves as experts,
to lead with titles.
But the more I devote myself to a life of Tea,
in business, in parenting, in spirituality —
the more I understand:
wisdom is lived.
Yes, there are way-showers, path-pointers, and students who have walked with devotion for lifetimes.
But as long as you're still listening,
the teacher is always you… and your practice of living.
A Bevvie I’m Loving -
Beverages are a significant investment in my home. I try not to add up the monthly spend on them, if I’m being honest.
I’m a push-over for beautiful packaging and a delish drink.
The drink drawer in my casa is currently stocked with Dram — think flower-infused, bubbly goodness. Alcohol-free.
Their Lavender Lemon Balm has been my writing mate for these newsletters lately.
Soft, floral, a little citrusy.
Feels calming & invigorating all at once.
Not being paid. Ha. Just loving it & wanted to share.
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